Lately I’ve noticed old doubts trying to creep back in. The ones that tell me I have to hold it all together by myself. It still surprises me how quickly that voice shows up when I’m working on something that brings up my past experiences or stretches me into new territory.

As I said in my last blog, I’ve struggled a lot for a few weeks now with feeling overwhelmed as the work of writing another book about my past triggered old feelings of shame, guilt, and inadequacy. Grief has also entered the picture as the anniversary of John and my wedding draws near. He was my cheerleader and could make me laugh when life got overwhelming. He wasn’t perfect, but he loved me and he was someone I could talk to whenever I was creating something new. Once again, I find myself alone as I navigate the emotional rollercoaster of grief, lonliness, and old triggers.

But then I remember that I’m not alone.

I remember all the times Jesus showed up for me during my childhood to hold me, comfort me, and reassure me all was well. Then, as the memories resurfaced and I thought I couldn’t hold on to my sanity, He was there in miraculous ways which literally saved my life. Each time He let me know that I was not alone in my journey and that He still loved me. He held me until the tears subsided.

Held, Not Holding On

What I need right now isn’t another push to be strong. What I need is the reminder that I’m already being carried. God’s arms are steady, His comfort is real, and even when I feel shaky, I’m not alone.

This week I’m choosing to lean into that and letting Him comfort me when I feel unsettled and resting instead of bracing. Maybe you’re in that place too. If so, I hope this week whispers the same truth to you that I’m holding onto: we are already held.

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