The sonnet below is based on two lines from Sonnet I -Are Daddy’s Words the Truth or Does He Lie?, “With hope, I shift my eyes and look above/The bed. Escape and find relief again.” Dissociation is a common occurrence for traumatized individuals. We escape to a safer place. The new sonnet is written from the point of view of the source of my escape and relief, Jesus Christ. While He did not stop the abuse, He was always there to provide comfort and relief. Why He didn’t stop what was happening to me is a topic for another day.
From the foot of your bed, I see you hide
From what you fear. Your eyes reveal the pain
Of knowing that he will not be denied.
Your eyes fill with tears when he comes again.
If you are asleep, maybe he won’t stay.
He is not deceived that you are serene.
I want to shout to make him go away.
But I can only gaze upon the scene.
Frantic, you seek a way to find relief.
Finally, you understand that I am here.
You call out to me, “Jesus, help me please.”
He does not know I take away your fear.
I will not leave you. I ‘m always here
To shield your soul and wipe away your tears.